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What's Next?

After a 2 year hiatus… Ahhhhh, I have been inspired… to live again, to breathe again, to write again?

     Well for the moment let’s get into the write again part. Do you ever feel uninspired? Do you ever wonder what’s the point in perusing a dream or goal when it seems so out of reach? I found myself feeling just that way. For a writer, there is no instant gratification… not many social media likes or beautiful photography to share, not many people frequenting your site with cash in hand to buy your hair growth pills, or body slimming tea. For a writer (specifically a blogger) it’s pretty cut and dry. You have your opinion or your interpretation of the world. Hopefully a million people can connect with your view and you can turn that into a brand or business. Bloggers are essentially a product with no product to sell. Who would want to buy the thoughts of 32 year old still trying to figure out this thing we call life herself?

      I lost my passion for a while. As the world turns, we see an overwhelming flux of social media personalities and overnight sensations. I found myself wondering what was the point? How can I say what’s already been said a million times before and make it interesting enough for you to read it once more from me? How can I make the world feel my energy?  I guess you can say I was looking for a sign of some sort to lead me in the right direction in terms of my writing, hell, in terms of my entire freaking life (insert crying emoji for dramatic effect).

     The last few weeks have given me the “sign” I needed to purse my passions unapologetically. After visiting my home state of Michigan I found myself literally back where I started six years ago, surrounded by my best friends and my family. Isn’t it funny how when you’re at a fork in the road, you go back to your comfort zone? The things I hated about living here years ago didn’t seem so bad. The winter didn’t seem so long and the shopping didn’t seem to be as dreadful (with exceptions).  Surrounded with people who love me. Genuinely love me. No conditions, no expectations, no exceptions. Funny how people say all you need is love, but you never really get that until you need that.

     Blessed with the flair of being dramatic, I was looking for this sign of what’s next in everything. I’m talking Life Coaches, Counselors, Psychics, Tarot Cards and my favorite advice givers on earth Bartenders. I didn’t actually visit with a Psychic but I was not above it. Isn’t it funny how the older you get you find yourself doing things you said you would never do?

     One day while drinking a glass of my favorite wine Rombauer Chardonnay or 5 o’clock Gin… I can’t remember. Same difference. I received an email from an old friend asking to use one of my posts from over 2 years ago for his ahh-mazing travel website. Flattered and a bit astonished, I immediately replied “absolutely, if you would like for me to write anything else for you in the future, just let me know. I would love to help out.” Insane, isn’t it? Here I am with my very own blog that I haven’t even so much as looked at in about 2 years, receiving an email from someone I very much admired asking to feature one of MY blogs on his travel website. After a few days of going back and forth with him about the details, I decided to check my blog stats. To my surprise you guys have been checking my blog quite faithfully. There hasn’t been one day within the last year (I can’t see further than that) that someone hasn’t at least checked me out. Flattered I must say. I started to think… where would I be by now if I didn’t stop? What if I fought through whatever curve balls life had thrown me and thugged this here writing thing out? What if I didn’t take 2 years off and stayed with it? A few days later I received another email. A woman was thanking me for a post I wrote eons ago about a blow bar. 

     Is this the sign I was looking for? Certainly seems that way. I started to think about how fearless I was at one point in my life. I would get an idea in my mind and I would pursue that idea relentlessly. Before I had thoughts of getting married and building a home. Before the idea of buying new cars, Chanel bags and Louboutin’s were the symbols of success. Intuition and thought was all the reason I needed to go. 

     What’s next? I don’t know. I do know I have a responsibility to myself to write. It may not be everyday or every week, but I will write. A very wise woman once said "just keep swimming" and that is what I intend to do. Thank you all for your continued support. 

 

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